When Clouds Look Like Mountains

I was on the treadmill looking into the distance at low gray clouds. They looked like mountains. So I moved myself from Detroit to Denver and was on a treadmill there, looking out at the Flatirons. Treadmills are really boring, your feet move but you don’t go anywhere, so your brain (mine anyway) takes off at a trot.

So I’m thinking about what things look like and what they really are.

My clouds…

Yes, I am overweight. 35 minutes on a treadmill won’t change that.

Yes, Christmas is coming and it’s a pain. Why does it keep coming around so fast? Wasn’t it just August?

I need to settle down and work on my next novel. Can’t concentrate. Is dementia setting in?

Ahh…see these are my clouds pretending to be mountains.

Exercise is good, even if I don’t get skinny. Most of my Christmas shopping is done. And when I actually sit in front of the laptop, I know that the next book will eventually get done, and it will be GOOD.

I have only clouds.

But some of my people have Mountains.

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In the past two and a half weeks, there have been a shocking number of deaths. Meighen’s husband Bill died. Marilyn’s husband Don died. My sister-in-law Leslie’s mother died. My daughter’s neighbor died, and so did Tim, my ex-sister-in-law’s ex-husband. An acquaintance was visiting her family out West and died there. George H.W. Bush died.

My daughter-in-law, Bonnie, had shoulder surgery that will take months to heal completely. My sister-in-law, Katie, is also about to have surgery. My brother and his wife split up. A friend’s cancer is back. Another friend is waiting biopsy results for skin cancer.

Too many hard things. Really hard. Rocks. Mountains.

What do you do when faced with a mountain? Climb it?

Are you afraid of heights?

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Face it? Just stare it down?

And when (if ever) will it become a cloud, low hanging, a mist that dissipates when the sun fills the sky.

To all my people going through hard times, I wish you strength, and send my love and wishes for healing.

And someday I hope your mountains will be just clouds.

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15 Replies to “When Clouds Look Like Mountains”

  1. Phew!! ….my heart goes out to you. And, I thought to lose a friend or two recently was bad….but this is way too much/way too many. Blessings for Peace soon.

  2. Beautifully written! It moved me to tears. I’ll remember this and climb up my own mountain, knowing that in the end I’ll stand surrounded by clouds that are quickly dissipating. And the view will be amazing.

  3. Very nice Lynn,
    I have my treadmill near the basement window so I can watch all the birds and squirrels eat the food in the feeders.

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